Anyway, last year I applied to a photo-journalist internship at TravelJapan.com, thinking that there was no way in hell I would ever get accepted. Recently, every job/internship I apply for gets me nowhere and now I'm left feeling discouraged and with really low self esteem.
Well it just so happens that I receive a message from them recently saying that they really liked my portfolio and would like to chat with me via Skype. Of course, being super surprised, I gladly accepted. The interview went well (with the exception of my internet shutting down for a few minutes) and by the end of the interview, I was told that they would be really happy to have to join their program. I was sooooooo ecstatic that after closing down the Skype chat, I started crying with excitement. "OMG, I'm going to Japan to be a photo Journalist for 2 months" I thought. I told my sister who was also so happy for me. However, after a few days and reality sunk in, I was reviewing the information and realized that although the program covered some of the costs, it was nearly enough. Flights to Japan are just way too expensive, especially now because it's cherry blossom season. It would still cost be a few thousand, and just for an internship. The first day I realized it was impossible, I was just so heartbroken and didn't want to talk to anyone about it. I prayed so hard to be accepted, and now to have it taken away from me hurts quite a bit. I just hope God has a better plan for me in store because right now I'm just really sad.
Anyway, I'm glad I could get this off my chest.
If anyone is actually reading this, thanks.